Post by Ajahli on Jan 9, 2013 15:34:35 GMT -5
I figured people would want to know more about what is going on. Not that everyone wants to hear my sob story but I guess I should share anyway.
Making pages has just been really hard for me lately. I'm not happy with how I have been making them (in terms of style, technique). I put a lot of pressure on myself especially with work being so busy because of the end of year/beginning of the year rush. It stresses me out (the job) because I am constantly trying to prove that I can do the amount of work but the management (which is awful) is constantly finding ways to sabotage my work ethic, and even when I try to do my best I am met with all of this hostility and disappointment from the higher ups. I don't know how else to please them except to just play dumb and not even try that hard, to satisfy their suspicions.
Anyway, this all caught up with me on Saturday night. We went to see the Hobbit right after work (so about 11p) I had some caffeine before the show and was doing fine but when I sat down for the previews my heart felt like it was going to explode and I spent 3 hours trying not throw up and trying to calm down so my heart would slow down. As soon as I got into my friend's car my arms and legs went numb, so we drove to the Hospital in town (which is like a half hour from where we went to see the movie) and I went to the E.R.
So now I am on anxiety medication and something to keep my heart from racing X___x I won't know more about it until I can go see a cardiologist next week.
So yeah basically this hiatus is just so I can recover from some emotional problems and put myself together, and so I can give myself some time to catch up on scripts and get some stuff done without stressing out about my own personal deadlines. Deadlines are probably the last thing I need right now lol. Unfortunately this puts a damper on my plans to take commissions too since stress is not my best friend right now. I'm going to try and find a new job. The only problem is with this one I have right now, I have health benefits and it pays very well, so quitting would mean a whole new string of problems.
Basically what I'm trying to say is my life is very stressful lmao
Still, sorry if anyone is really disappointed in me. I love to tell stories and make things others enjoy but I just have to put myself first this time. Regroup, go back to the drawing board and get a grip on my life. We've all been there. Unfortunately I am just the type who lets it all pile up on top of her instead of sorting it all out before it becomes a problem. Go me!
Anyway, planning to be more active on the forum and on my blog n such. If anyone has any questions feel free to contact me and thank you all for your continued support!
GRS will be back in a few months, if all goes well~!
Making pages has just been really hard for me lately. I'm not happy with how I have been making them (in terms of style, technique). I put a lot of pressure on myself especially with work being so busy because of the end of year/beginning of the year rush. It stresses me out (the job) because I am constantly trying to prove that I can do the amount of work but the management (which is awful) is constantly finding ways to sabotage my work ethic, and even when I try to do my best I am met with all of this hostility and disappointment from the higher ups. I don't know how else to please them except to just play dumb and not even try that hard, to satisfy their suspicions.
Anyway, this all caught up with me on Saturday night. We went to see the Hobbit right after work (so about 11p) I had some caffeine before the show and was doing fine but when I sat down for the previews my heart felt like it was going to explode and I spent 3 hours trying not throw up and trying to calm down so my heart would slow down. As soon as I got into my friend's car my arms and legs went numb, so we drove to the Hospital in town (which is like a half hour from where we went to see the movie) and I went to the E.R.
So now I am on anxiety medication and something to keep my heart from racing X___x I won't know more about it until I can go see a cardiologist next week.
So yeah basically this hiatus is just so I can recover from some emotional problems and put myself together, and so I can give myself some time to catch up on scripts and get some stuff done without stressing out about my own personal deadlines. Deadlines are probably the last thing I need right now lol. Unfortunately this puts a damper on my plans to take commissions too since stress is not my best friend right now. I'm going to try and find a new job. The only problem is with this one I have right now, I have health benefits and it pays very well, so quitting would mean a whole new string of problems.
Basically what I'm trying to say is my life is very stressful lmao
Still, sorry if anyone is really disappointed in me. I love to tell stories and make things others enjoy but I just have to put myself first this time. Regroup, go back to the drawing board and get a grip on my life. We've all been there. Unfortunately I am just the type who lets it all pile up on top of her instead of sorting it all out before it becomes a problem. Go me!
Anyway, planning to be more active on the forum and on my blog n such. If anyone has any questions feel free to contact me and thank you all for your continued support!
GRS will be back in a few months, if all goes well~!
